Doubt, Trust or Apathy ?

The girl look a bit like Jasmine. I mean A BIT. Dunno why, reminds me of her.

Wow. I just notice I am filling my blog with all the psychology and philosophical stuffs. My friend said that my blog is getting 'deep' and i think i should start posting something more normal and relaxing concerning myself soon.

Now, I was reading a comic today and I learned something very interesting today. Ma and Pa always say comics are non-educational and is a pure waste of time, but I think otherwise though...IMO it's the same like watching the TVB drama on 8TV or TV3 on 7pm with a plate of rice in one hand and the TV remote in another while munching a whole mouth of rice while commenting how stupid the main girl character is. I still remember the "OMG why this girl so stupid one. If i am her, I sure give the guy double slap." and "OMG so unrealistic. See this is your typical copy cat hong kong film." type of conversations during dinner. =.=

Anyway i am out of topic lolz. So what about Doubt, Trust and Apathy did I learn ? Below is the conversation, and i even added emoticons to help you picture the situation more ! =DD

Girl : I am sorry that i doubted you. I feel bad. =(

Guy : What's wrong for doubting somebody else ? Humans should be doubted. =O

Girl : Huh? o.0

Guy : Many people misunderstand this concept. That doubting is bad. Doubting people is a simple a way of getting to know them.

Guy : Trust. The act of 'trust' is without a doubt a very noble one. But sadly what they call 'trust' is actually just giving up on trying to understand someone...and that said, it has nothing to do with 'trust' but rather APATHY. ^^

Guy : Many people fail to realize that apathy itself is a far more devastating act then doubt. =/

Guy : Question them, suspect them and take a long and good look at their heart. After all humans are creatures that can't put their pain into words. =)

Well said. I always thought that doubting is bad too but if you ask a question that comes from a positive and curious spirit and not a malicious one, you will end up learning more. That said. This comic is about Social Engineering and Psychology. It's interesting and it's reminds a little bit of a english series called 'Lie To Me' which also another good and interesting show.

The Gray Gay World

I never thought that life can be so gray. When good and bad doesn't really seems to fall into places they are meant too. Sometimes it's easy to say "It's bad !! Very bad ! It's sick !" but sometimes it's just hard to judge...and who are we to judge ?

Is there such a thing called gay love or str8 love ? Gay friend say "Love is just love. There is no such thing gay or str8 love. It's just that you str8s label it that way." They say, "If God forbid gays then why do he let me feel this way?". But my thoughts are, if a guy is born penniless, would he improve, look for job so he can have a better living or stay in his current situation ?

Everybody deserves and want to be loved...but to what extent ? I chat with a gay online once, and I found out, that they are just very human like us. It's so hard to reply. Do we tell them frankly that homo is wrong and reject them ? or give a weak smile ? it's easier to say "hate the practice but accept the person as who he is" but when you try to act on it, it's hard. It really feels so horrid that it makes you speechless when hear a friend say "I am still young now and I want to find a partner asap...because I am afraid when I am old no one will want me any more." What should I say ? >.< "Gambatteeh !! ^^" ? Well that feels wrong lolz. When you try to reach them with Christianity, they instantly build a great wall of China in front of you, thinking that like everybody else, God will reject them too.

Then i was reading some random blog. He has some homo problems he is currently dealing and struggling with. He wrote in a post that he has a str8 best friend he adores. They share things and they threat each other like brother. Through the friendship he says he learn that love doesn't necessarily involve intercourse. After all, love is love. And I think I know what he meant. I had something similar. I have a very good friend that I used to hang out with all the time back then. He being the only male I could share and relate to, i used to stick with him where ever he goes. You could say it WAS a bromance (a term when 2 male friends are unusually close and spends lots of time together. and NO i am not gay, I don't swing that way for heaven sake =.= ). lol.

There are so many gray areas in life, I don't know the answers to it, but this I know...I believe if I follow His commandments he will reveal the answer to me one day. That is faith. Lately, I have seen a lot of things. Come to see that they will always be surprise waiting around the corner just when you think that you've seen it all...especially the internet. =.= While these experiences leaves me wondering sometimes, I am grateful at the same time because I have learn and seen something new.